Been a while. . .

Been about two years since my last poem post. Ha! Things have certainly changed since then. For one I have a more love for life! And also I am the same person yet I am different. All that I really mean to say is that I have matured. I mean I'm still young and complain about dumb things but I mean who doesn't?
I have a job. Two actually. My first job is that of a hostess, but right now I am on temporarily leave. And the other is a Pet Care Specialist at PetSmart. I really like that one, it's a whole different environment than in a restaurant with angry people and their stupid food. 


Anywho, being on here is just so relaxing almost. I feel like I can poor out my inner darkest feelings without being judged.... Well I may be judged but I'm not there to feel the resentment or whatever. And with no one ever posting comments it's like no one is there anyway. My boyfriend never reads these anyway so it's like all the thoughts in my brain can be poured out safely without the fear of being crucified. 


My junior year of high school I finally found the perfect guy. Well I like to call him perfect. =) And now I've been with him for about two years. These have been some of the best moments in my life. (Just lying in bed laughing.) Umm, so Evy (you know the guy I was madly in love with for about two years or so, read the old blog that is still up to catch you up to date) is very much alone now. And I can actually talk to him like a regular human being. But know he only wants to get with me.... My, my how the tables have turned! Also, I started college which is okay right now. Tried an art college but no thanks. Not what I really want to do with my life. I'm thinking architecture though. I mean people always need houses and buildings to be built and with my artistic capabilities I would find it rather fun to create new living spaces for everybody. But we'll see how that goes. Maybe well maybe not. 


Anyway, my tummy is hungry and I'm tired. 


Next, the name John.


It's stupid... (but then again my father's name was John...and I never got to know him the way I wanted to.) <--this is when this overwhelming sadness takes over me (and the music in the background is just so fitting haha!).