John

Oh boy. For me this name has been paired with a bad person. Two three times before. HOWEVER, that does not mean I have not met some great Johns. I have one friend named John and he is so dang funny and is a wonderful friend.

Call it prejudice if you will. To some extent I guess it is.

1. John Bartley. My father. I, personally have nothing against this man. I never got to know the man. So how can I hold a grudge against somebody I don't even know. (It's like they don't exist.) He cheated on my mother... Ok, so that hatred should be hers alone. But no, my sister hates him too, even though she was like 7 when this happened. I never got to know him as I said before and I'll never be angry about it but rather I'm just curios... What if he was in my life? But never mind that. To me he seemed like a descent human being (more than my mum...). But the only thing I ever feel is this empty void wishing I could have gotten to know my father. I don't think he's dead or anything but he might as well be to me....

2. John Brooks? I think that was his last name. An ex of mine. At the time he was my best-friend's boyfriend's best-friend. And so they talked me into dating him. He was really sweet, however, his parents had taken him out of school (made him drop out) and John said it was because they hated him, logical reasoning it seemed. Unfortunately, I was extremely busy during the time we were dating and didn't get to see him as often as I would have wanted to. I remember this one time he had wanted to plan a romantic date at the park and stuff... (can't remember the details... all I know is that he wanted me alone.) Anywho, let's fast-forward a month or so ahead. He calls his bestie saying he never wants to see me again (I guess I broke up with him without ever knowing it... I'm not exactly sure.)

So the years go by and now my best-friend tells me that she learned some interesting news about him. Turns out, he had gotten "kicked out" of his parents house and went to live with her (my best-friend) ex [yes, they did in fact break up after a year and a half]. The father of her ex thought it fishy and asked the police to bring up files on him. Turns out once he turned of a certain age he was supposed to go to jail. Why you ask? Well... turns out since he was about 12 or so he had been raping little girls. Yeah. Nice little fact that I had to learn.... He had been doing this all during the time of our relationship, too. So now, I can add this guy to my list of Johns.



*To be honest, it's not a long list. Only three. But only really two that I regret.*

3. __________________. He dare not be mentioned. Short and simple: he played with my mind. Made me feel important (rather unique). He left and that's the end. Mentally screwed me.

And. That is the end of what I've got to say.
I could talk forever about this last fellow. But maybe another day.